Home

Leo's come back home, finally.  He's still sick, however - but he's eating.  Which is good.

Hospitalized

Leo is now hospitalized for the second day.  This is a reaction to the chemo.

Very Sick Boy

Leo is very, very ill. The latest round of chemo, the doxyrubicin, is really taking its toll on him.  Last night, we were at the vet getting fluids and some meds.  Tonight, Leo is in the hospital, getting IV fluids and anti-nausea meds.

Bump

Chemo 12 today for Leo.  This is the tough one - it's the Doxyrubicin, and it's the one that's the hardest on Leo's system.  On top of this, his allergies have been brutal the last few days - he has, in fact, been scratching himself raw.

Sneezing

Bit used to sneeze.  The sound and the rythm were totally unique, and totally him.  However, it's weird - I've noticed that the sound of the Verizon installers doing something on the utility pole outside makes almost the same noise.  It was both alarming and soothing to hear it.

Guilt

I am very very sad about Bit.  Paralyzed, to be honest.  I have a difficult time sleeping, a difficult time waking, and a difficult time doing anything.  While I'm sad that he's gone, and I know that he was in a very bad state, I still feel guilt.  I feel that I let him down, that I gave up on him.

The price we pay

They give so much, yet ask so little.  Food and water, kindness and companionship.  And it's returned with unconditional love and constant devotion.  But it isn't free.

A very empty house

Bitter is gone. I took him in today, and it was critical.  He was failing, and it was time.

Bit

I'm very, very concerned about Bit.  He was vomiting everything up on Monday and Tuesday, then with the help of the anti-nausea meds he stopped, but wasn't eating enough.  Yesterday I gave him an appetite stimulant. He ate, but he seems very very unhappy.  He's hiding now, under the bed.